AN AMAZING JOURNEY – MY RECENT PAST
Life for me was one gigantic accumulation. Days accumulated into weeks, weeks into months and months into years. Along with this came the unwarranted accumulation of disappointment, rejection, and worthlessness. Every dawn beckoned a new day, a new beginning, just as dusk put to bed the activities of a day gone by, only to yearn for a new tomorrow. Unfortunately, for me a new day was just like any other day. Only a means to reconfirm that time stood still for no one. The days lined up, silently passing by; fulfilling their duty towards time, reinforcing their utmost loyalty, ensuring that time proceeded ahead no matter what. I too was a slave to this monotonous and seemingly endless ‘marching on’ of time. Left Right Left…, my body had attuned itself to this rhythm less beat, moving on and on yet never knowing where I was headed. My mind as usual lagged a mile behind my body, never interested to inquire or make known to itself the purpose of intent, of its physical counterpart. The feeling was in fact mutual. Both were independent entities, as perceived by me at the time, and were content to know that the other was near and safe, hence keeping pretty much to their own selves. Life had been unkind and like a silent under current it had swept me away from the safe shoreline to the vast and turbulent waters.
Without any regard for my own safety I allowed the waves of guilt, deception and pain to swallow me whole, again and again, spitting me out only when their sweet will desired. A horribly wrong marriage, an ill child and a contaminated environment had taken its toll heavily upon me. I was severely damaged and broken beyond repair. It had taken many years and a string of catastrophes to finally ensure complete mental and physical destruction. Despite years of abuse, humiliation and fear my dilapidated mind still managed to muster up the courage and strength to send out a final distress signal…STOP!! LET GO!! ITS OVER!!!!! My mind had spoken, and it was high time that I listened and obeyed. The divorce papers were filed after seven and a half years of marriage. The ball had been set rolling after years of stagnation. After this giant leap, I felt my mind and body ease a bit. The endless contemplation was over; the past was being laid to rest.
Its grave had been dug and all that was needed now was for the gaping hole to be filled and cemented shut forever. Yet again another hurdle added to my list of struggles. I had accumulated immense negativity over the years. This negativity had been harboured for years and had found its place in the deep recesses of my heart and soul. There was no way I would be able to release myself of this sinister entity. The past was inside me, tucked away in the remotest corners, the whereabouts of which were unknown to my own conscious mind. I was a walking zombie. My legs weighed down with my burdensome past, my eyes clouded unable to look through the thick mist of the past that was now eclipsing my present as well as my future. I needed HELP!!!!! The medication was barely sustaining me. I was beyond the curative effects of pathological medicine. What I needed was a miracle. The healing touch of God was the only option that would suffice.
It was around this point of time that I came to know about Hypnotherapy and its wondrous results. Having no prior experience regarding this therapy and only a fistful of knowledge acquired during brief readings on the Internet, I decided to undergo the therapy. I underwent two sessions. I was open and receptive to the process with only a few fleeting moments of doubt, and that too due to the newness of the entire experience. It was truly an amazing experience. A journey, into never ventured depths of my subconscious mind.
It brought out a lot of lost memories and feelings that had lingered on inside me for years. It had unzipped the bags of my past and an opportunity had been provided to me, to unpack and discard whatever it was that I no longer required. After my second and last session, I felt an emotional stability settling in. I longed for my daughter to experience and benefit from Hypnotherapy, but was advised against it by my therapist, as young children were not ideal candidates for this sort of therapy. Instead, she suggested another ‘Natural Therapy’ called Reiki. A bit disheartened by a sudden change in course, I was willingly open to any new therapy that came my way. We needed to be healed, and after the Hypnotherapy a ray of hope had illuminated inside me and was lighting my way along this freshly found path, coaxing me to move forward and to never ever look back again.
Prathap was the name uttered by my Hypnotherapist, that fateful winter morning. The same exact person whose entry into our lives, not only, forever altered the course of our lives but also the very meaning of the word life. ‘Sir’ as known to us now, is a travelling Shiatsu and Reiki Practitioner. He was introduced to us as the ‘travelling healer’. He travelled from place-to-place healing the sick and the suffering. Having this piece of information with us my father contacted Sir and spoke to him regarding our need for his services. After a few telephonic conversations, a date was set and the wait for Sir’s arrival began. I with hope in my heart and simmering expectation waited for that day. I had even etched a mental picture of Sir in my mind. I saw him as a tall and very thin man with glasses, simply dressed in a cotton shirt and pants, and to complete the picture a pair of sandals on his feet. I even imagined him to be extremely fluent in Hindi and thought it would be his chosen language of discourse. Of course, as usual I was wrong…………….
The first night Sir arrived home I was immediately captivated by Sir’s warm smile and infectious laugh. He was as ordinary in appearance as any one of us, but there was warmth that he radiated and a peace that seemed to surround him. He seemed to sense our pain and suffering even before our issues had been categorically stated. It would take some time, before a two ways Communication Street was up and running. Reiki began the next day. The first few days passed by without much change in my mood or physical wellbeing. Along with the Reiki and a few foot reflexology sessions, I found myself talking to Sir more and more about my life and the hardships faced by me, which eventually led me to this forefront in life. Sir had a remarkable ability to listen to each word uttered by me. It was as though he was absorbing the hurt emanating from my feelings. Not only was the toxicity inside me being released through Reiki, but also through my endless talks with Sir. His wise teachings and reassuring advice had begun to rekindle a newfound hope and desire in me. The desire to be happy, the desire, to forget the past and the desire to love and cherish myself unconditionally.
My energy flow was being regularized by the Reiki. Around the tenth day I fell seriously ill. Though Sir had mentioned that Reiki could bring about fever or sickness, I never imagined that Reiki would have such a profound effect upon me. My whole body was sick. Ranging from vomiting to diarrhoea, from a sore throat to wheezing in my chest, bodily aches, and pains and to top it all off, I was running a consistent high fever. The sickness lasted exactly seven days as Sir had predicted. For me the actual sanctity of this episode lay in the fact that I had battled the demons of my body without an ounce of medication. Not even a painkiller. It was the Reiki, Shiatsu and my unwavering faith in Sir and his spiritual guidance that kept me afloat and led to my miraculous recovery. My body had been cleansed and eradicated of the toxicity it had accumulated over my many years of suffering. It was after my recovery that I in totality began to view the world around me in a new light.
My perception of myself had remarkably changed. The old me was gone and alongside my turbulent past was buried forever. I could sense a new evolving strength inside me. I had discovered the key to my peace and contentment. I could utterly understand and comprehend what it meant to feel connected to one’s inner self. My inner energies were brimming and flowing unabashed. My mind and body were now in peace working in unison. A new ‘me’ was born. A second chance at life bestowed upon me by Reiki and the spiritual renderings of Sir. It was now time for me to venture out and in the process, discover and nurture my newly acquired strengths and to build upon them. The mist is gone, permitting me to transform my present into an even better future. I feel the need to enjoy and cherish every passing moment. I am greedy for life and it subtle pleasures, for now, I long to find peace and contentment in all I see and do.
Sir we have been blessed by your loving and healing touch, and I pray that many others are lucky enough to experience your miraculous power. It is through you that I realized, God works his magic in many ways. THANK YOU, SIR.
(By: Ms. Terveen Bains from CHANDIGARH on February 25, 2010 at 6:34 pm)